Чернобыль. Страницы жизни и любви [Наталья Николаевна Карпович] (fb2) читать постранично, страница - 23

so hard for me, but I am very happy: we had those two years, and you were with me. I come to him, cry and talk, and he hears me, he waits for me, I know that. He is nearby and helps me.

It seemed to me that I wouldn’t outlive his death, but I am living, maybe not living, but existing, but here I am. I live with love for him. I look for strength. It’s so difficult, frightening and painful. Sometimes it’s unbearable. For a long, long time, there won’t be any respite for me. It is very difficult in such a condition, the sorrow that is in you is great, and it weighs you down. It is you who feels all that and undergoes everything. It is yours. But life goes on and everything changes. But I know that our love is heavenly, forever. Many events followed Sergei’s death. But I know for certain that his love will continue to warm me, it will help us all.

The song which Sergei sang on our wedding was his gift to me. I don’t know who wrote these words, but in Sergei’s performance, it was beautiful and unforgettable.

I want you to be my wife

I want you always to be with me

To share in all my hopes

Sorrows and joys without getting tired.

You’ll give me a son, and, maybe, a daughter.

She will look just like you,

Blue‑eyed, with light‑brown tresses,

And, just like her mother, with a small tilt to her nose.

And I also want people to love our house,

For friends to gather round the circular table,

For us to share everything with the friends

Our friendship with sorrows and songs.

If you can’t give me your answer right away,

Don’t rush, darling, I can wait,

I’ve been dreaming for more than a year

My darling, my kind, my proud one.

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